listen to Red-A

i dont understand a word of Dutch but im pretty sure he doesn't put profanity in his rap plus it SOUNDS GREAT!!!!

  Red-A Tracks by Red-A

Butterfly by Mariah Carey

"Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest”

tough love?

it would be a silly suggestion if you said i hated my father.. I can never hate my father. I only hate his pessimistic way of inspiring me to finish college. As though he thinks, he can give people the drive to better themselves by doing reverse psychology on them. Maybe it worked a couple of times, so then he decided........ this is his way..I wouldn't say its unique because I think of him as a drill sergeant but more on a subtle way......

i think what my dad needs is trust... he needs to trust...... me. That i can do this.... Sometimes, maybe not the way that he wants it to be.... but my way.

And just maybe.. i will drink that green tea so I could finish college early.....
who knows.. it might work.
ahhhhh.. papa you're so cruel in a funny way.

okay.

why are some people scared of the idea of solitariness? I cant blame them. We are creatures designed to need companionship. Solitude has been associated with loneliness and unhappiness, well shit...duh?! right...? But we all need a break away from society, dont we? We need to be left alone but only to a point. Breath the air at the park without worrying about someone who thinks you're a psycho or a loner. Whats so bad about it? I would be stupid if i said, we want companionship.....no we dont!!! We need and want it......
but having time by ourselves is as important as socializing as well.

My point here is... dont worry about eating alone in the cafeteria or walking to the park alone. ahahah

since when...?

does distance deters? tell me why its impossible. We could think of all those possible points on why it would make it hard, but they do not matter otherwise. Whatever it is that we feel now wont be much different at the end, unless we find someone else that compares.

Lets say you found a girl that dress like me; walk, talk and act like me and she just might be the next best thing but not quite me! ahahahhaha jk

oh boy, im not making this easy for you huh? i dont know why im even talking about this.. i hope i dont get you mad...

this thing that we have.. what can i say! its complexity is so beautiful, i cant even understand it myself.

*snaps back to reality. 

Amiel and Julia

i miss them.. :)

show what im looking for...........will yah?

What can i do? Nothing.. lets not try to understand it anymore. IT is what IT is.. Sometimes i blog at night because it is usually the time where i just want to write about what i feel.... and then in the morning i asked myself "What the fudge..... did i just write last night" eeek!  shouldve stayed quiet hehe...... but yeahh thats about it.....night!